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So I want to first apologize to Addi since I cant get to a computer to update this as much as I want but I am home and doing well....

American

What does it mean to be American? I was reading my friend Beckys blog and this kinda came to my head. I was wondeirng what really do we consider to be American? Becky said that being able to hop in a car and drive anywhere we want actively pursuing happiness is soo American. I think shes right. But I think we should simplify it to just Pursuing.... Not necessarily anything you know?

Pursuing - happiness
Pursuing - our dreams
Pursuing - life
Pursuing - anything and everything

We are Free and I think that is what makes America so great. We are Free to choose and do what we want.

We have Freedom.

Freedom of speech
Freedom of religion
Freedom to be tried
Freedom to be what we want to be

Thats really what America was built on Freedoms and adgencies. We are a country full of dreamers and I would not have it any other way ....

Home & Muppets

Hey so Im coming home on monday! yeah .... this is so exciting! I cant wait to get home! Im tired of boring old wisconsin where all I do is sit inside all day adn watch movies cause there really is nothing else to do here... Im not too sure whether I will have my phone is kinda up in the air at this point but yeah anywho... Im gonna try and get a job asap so we will see how it works out! 

So lately I have been watching a bunch of the muppet movies and I was sitting here thinking and realized ...Why the heck would a frog fall in love with a pig? Especially cause Pigs are soo much bigger than frogs? Not to be mean but its true at least they are in real life not muppet life...lol. I also realized that Ms Piggy made it cool to be big but I think she was secretly black cause she was a diva with a 'tude if you know what im saying ha ha ha but seriously? Why was she soo mean. She kinda of was a bitch lol. She actually reminds me of my older sister has a quick temper, dramatic and everythings about her. lol...no offense! But everyone knows its true! 

I personally thought Ralf was the coolest but he didnt really look like a dog that much though. If you watch Muppets take Manhatten he works in a dog pound and the other dog puppets look like dogs its looks like they ran out of ideas on how to make him so they took a big furry blanket and put it over a bowl or something i mean it looks a little nicer than that but I feel like they did not put much time into planning his puppet look at all. 

I also love Beaker though he never talks hes always getting eletricuted and etc lol....Hes soo funny! 

Well thats all from my world! 

update

A lot of people keep asking me whast going on and heres the deal. Im trying to move home to live with Brittany and mom so I can get my life straight and etc. I want to work and pay off all my debts and then go back to school. the Army I still really want to do but liek I said earlier I need to put it to the back burner for now so that I can work on paying off debts or else they wont let me in. Its kinda annoying cause the signing bonus alone would get me out of having to pay those debts but whatevers. SO yeah thast the update I should be heading home here in the next week or two but not sure plans keep getting changed but yeah! Now you all know! Love you!

Nick Pantera

This guy is amazing the first time I ever heard him I about peed my pants! Here is some videos of him!

I cant figure out how to add videos so youtube him!!! he is amazing!

California Dreamin'

Hey ya'll well its about time...Im coming home to California for good! I will still keep posting blogs dont worry! But yeah I am gonna come live with Brittany and mom! I cant wait! Im soo excited! Yeah! So yeah! Hope life is going well for everyone.

I spent a week in Chicago and didnt see a dang thing in Chicago ...kinda annoying! But i did see the ghetto parts and tiffanys house! lol...
Not much to tell from my trip to her house...

Well thats all love you!

new cousin pics!

cute pics of the cousins! Stole from Brittanys Facebook! I thought Id add them on here!

Sad Day...

Hey so it turns out Shawndel cant come visit me...But maybe for my birthday some of my friends will come or something.

So my roomate is crushing on a boy and its really entertaining to watch her interactions and facial expressions when she gets like texts or calls from him he he he he...im not alloud to post any more than that but its funny!

SO I got a phone today yeah!! lol...heres the number 608-718-2080...anywho

Thats all for now...

Hollywood,

So the theory goes that people in Hollywood die in threes and again I was proven this point ... Micahel jackson, Ed McMahon and Ferrah Faucette. This is a sad week in Hollywoods history. I truly love them all. Star Search, Charlies angels and the king of pop! Sad sad sad they will all be remembered...

So i got a message from y friend Shawndel yesterday and her and COdy have a vacation coming up. (Cody is her adorable son) and they are thinking of coming to see me! Yeah! I cant wait I hope they come see me! I have not seen them in like 3 years crazy!

Well im outs ya'll

wheres my happy ending...

So I was reading some of my other friends blogs and so it kind of sparked this blog. Lol...

You know I love my family but Damn they get on my nerves ;-) I mean I gave up a long time ago thinking we would ever be the perfect family like the Brady bunch of the cleavers. (though that would be pretty sweet! lol) I use to find myself wishing I was like this family or apart of that family when I was younger. Which I look at it now and realize that is wrong. My family is the family God gave me love them or not. I mean they definitly are some charcters in my family and the relationships in my family are so messed up its not even funny but what am I supose to do about it? I can only love them and hope the best for them. Even though they can make my life a living hell ;-)

So today another one of my friends got engaged and I found another one is pregnant! Man I wish soo bad for that to be me! I feel like im missing the band wagon lol. No but really I want to be a mom so bad its not even funny. I have even been having dreams about having a baby which I think is kinda weird. I just you know want to find that one person out there for me and settle down for the rest of my life with and have a family. But I dont even have a man right now so I just have to wait the Lord will give me that when hes ready. I just need to be patient. Is it weird that i'm 21 and want to already settle down? I guess i have never been average. i feel I had to grow up at a younger age then I should have due to being raised by a working single mom. Not that I have a problem with that. But I feel I have matured a lot of the past few years. going out clubbing and drinking well thats not really all that cool you know? To me i want to have a life a family but like i said its time to be patient....

Well thats it really...